Music: Heavenly Days - Aragaki Yui
Mood: Exhausted!

I'm feeling too lazy to do updating of any sort. And I'm having Writer's Block. Damn. Stuck at Chapter 7 with no idea how I should continue.
If only I could get my hands on some twister fries, maybe that'll keep my inspiration coming. At times like this, I really wish for a butler. Right now I'm feeling really really really really tired because I haven't slept a wink since yesterday and have been taking care of one little monster the whole day.

It was hella awesome though. Moose and I brought Layla to the zoo in the morning. She seemed really excited and adorable too! It felt weird to be the responsible adult for once. We took lotsa photos with her polaroid camera(which was pink) and I suppose it don't surprise you I spent a whole 30 minutes gazing at the polar bears in wonder?
We got Moosezayyy to hold the snakes for a photo. He's all I'm-So-Not-Afraid-This-Is-Stupid and I'm all Yea-Right-Kiss-My-Ass.
When I tried to get him to kiss the snake he pushed it towards me. EW!

While we were so tired, Layla was still fidgeting around in the car, whining to see more. I don't really remember having that much energy when I was little..

We finally got her home and I was about to go when this cute little scene happened:
/walks towards the door and sees Layla prancing around in my pink sneakers and posing in the mirror
Me: Uh.. what are you doing Layla?
Layla: *stops and looks at me, embarrassed* Nothing.. I like you.
Me: Oh I like you too Layla, but what were you doing in my shoes?
Layla: I want to be like you and dress like a princess!
Me: I don't dress like a princess..
Layla: But you wear pretty clothes and Moose likes you and he calls you princess so you are a princess!
Me: /pause
Layla: I think you're pretty.. will you dress me up like a princess too?
Me: Next time you come Singapore, I'll be sure to do that.

Isn't she just adorable? But Moose just had to ruin the moment by walking in and say "Oh hell, another spoiled brat in training. As if one isn't enough."
Sometimes he can be SO mean. Whatever Moose.

ANYWAY.. some photos from my trip a few days ago since I'm way too lazy to elaborate on that..


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Music: Fifteen - Taylor Swift
Mood: Grouchy and Sleepy

Hurray for the festive season. My body-clock went bonkers again, which explains why I'm blogging in the middle of the night. The other day I spent the whole night racking my brains for a Christmas one-shot. I succeeded and posted the story at 7am in the morning. I was so darn tired that I didn't even bother editting it.
Of course, I got chided by my beta readers due to the copious amounts of spelling & grammatical errors. My writing skills run away after 2am.
TC wanted to skin me, gut me, cook me and eat me. :( I had no idea my cyber buds were so bloodthirsty. Guess I should have heed-ed my mum's advice and stayed out of dangerous psychopaths lurking behind the walls of the internet..
Back to my squeamish rants. Right, I fell asleep right beside my new laptop until 1 in the afternoon and my aunt came in to drag me out for lunch.
Can't say I didn't enjoy it. We went strolling down Arab Street and I thought it was pretty fascinating, especially the Turkish-pipe things that they use to smoke opium with.
Anyhoo, I thought perhaps I'd get my well-deserved rest that night until I switched on the telly and found four back-to-back episodes of InuYasha Kanketsu-hen showing, right till 6am. Of course I watched it! Duh.
Although I've already watched them so many times I could memorise the lines.
Clearly something's terribly wrong with me. I don't care. Not really. He he..

Just to add on to the dramatic effect, I spent last night writing Chapter 4 of Choices and posting it immediately thereafter.
Meh it might come as a shock to some of you but most of the times my chapters aren't pre-written. I post as I write so basically, what you see is what you get. I mean, the plot is all in my head already(or on some random post-it) but I have no idea what's gonna come out of a certain chapter.
Suffice to say I am crazily random but once I get Chapter 5 uploaded(working on it now), you guys would be dying of laughter. Mwahahahaha..
Fiona is terrible, yea I know. Ha! I love writing Mizuki, I just have a soft spot for her. I don't know where Mizuki came from, she just popped into my head when I was trying to fill a blank spot but she's become quite a character eh? Mizuki means Beautiful Moon, go figure. Ha :D Angsty is in me. /nods.

Been doing loads of reading recently too and I am very proud to say that I've started to read Literature , something I despised before. I used to think, Hey life is hard enough. Why read about sad stuffs to make yourself cry?
Because life doesn't have a happy ending. I think I'm beginning to accept that. Ah the beauty of growing up.. :) I learned that nothing lasts forever but you can make the memories beautiful when you have it, whatever 'it' is.
I'm currently reading The Memory Keeper's Daughter, which is a very good book by Kim Edwards. Speaking of which, I was reading it while watching TV and my aunt switched to HBO family and it was showing TMKD! The craziest thing was that it was playing right where I left off reading. Life and it's moments. Ha ha.

A new year is right around the corner, and I realised I learned more in these few weeks than the whole year altogether. The kind words of strangers reached me somewhere no one else have and in those moments, I truely feel that the world isn't as ugly as some people critiqued. Whatever happens to you, no matter how alone you feel, somewhere in this world, somebody cares. It could be anyone! That is the beauty of the world.

*pauses while I upload a Chapter*

I'm so very PO by Microsoft Office!!!! The darn format doesn't let me upload on to MMorg! Oh gee now I have to change them to Rich Text format. What a waste of my time! *grumbles and glowers at Microsoft Word*

Music: Bad Romance - Lady GaGa
Mood: Christmas-y(Is there such a word?)

Alright, before I start on my latest chapter, I'd do a quick blog post. Before I forget, I'd like to thank everyone who wished me merry xmas. You know who you are. :)
Yesterday was fantastic! I received lots of awesome presents from my family. THEY are the awesome ones, really. Well, everyone knows my mum got me a Ralph Lauren BIG HORSE.
My aunt got me this beautiful gray striped shirt from Armani.
Another aunt got me a Marc by Marc Jacobs tote.
My uncle got me two story books, The Memory Keeper's Daughter and Life of Pi(something along those lines). I've been wanting to read the former for awhile so YAY! :D
Pops got me a laptop, ASUS. :D Which I'm using now. Its like breaking away from the childish notion of fighting over the computer with my horrible sisters.
Completely horrible. /nods vigorously.

As usual, we had a Christmas dinner today. We were supposed to eat at some hotel but my mum changed her mind and we ended up at Takashimaya's Imperial Treasure.
I couldn't bring myself to complain since the food was heavenly!!
To grouch would definitely be a sin. Ha ha :)
Anywayy, we went our separate ways after dinner since it was really too crowded for everyone to stay together.
After getting squashed and poked and pushed, we reached Borders @ Wheelock.
I bought four books, Fann bought three. Daddy said I cheated his money ):

I'm so very upset that Christmas Day is over. I'm not really that keen on going back to school for my results. Guess I'm not ready to find out how badly I've done..

Music: With You - AAA
Mood: Depressed.

I thought that if I didn't watch InuYasha for awhile, I'd have lots of episodes to catch up with. What a disappointment!!! I was discussing with Jenny about Kikyo's death and how we both cried like old women over soap operas. Ha!
We are not huge fans of Kikyo but it was still sad because she has turned from a villian to an anti-hero kind of character, I was sad to see her go. :(
But of course, the next episode we witnessed a whole lot of The Sexxhoumaru(I really get a kick out of that) in action, which was TOTALLY AWESOME!
I'm really trying hard to read the manga but honestly, everyone knows my aversion to comic books. I just don't read them. I like PLENTY OF WORDS. Pictures distract me.
That's just weird. :l

Anywayyy, Lynn and I went to grand aunt's shop for the day, the place we kind of grew up playing in, and we saw how the second level became a nursery. Four babies, three maids and my grand aunt.
I wonder how they manage it everyday. Plain havoc, if you ask me.
Ha ha, oh well.. I felt really old, looking at all the babies. :(
BUT, we got to go Jurong Point at night to buy our Christmas presents with pops! :D I got a laptop, Lynn got an ipod classic(shitzo hers is 160gb), and Fann got her own phone. AMAZING right?
I think I'm really blessed AND I'm very thankful for everything I have right now. Mucho gracias.

Okay, the following speech is for my dearest readers whom I love loads. You guys make me smile everyday with your reviews and jokes and aw, everything! :D

I've officially---and finally---removed my FFnet and AFFnet account. It was a very difficult struggle for me because I've met so many wonderful people. As my beta readers know me, I do well with constructive critisms and my work has considerably improved since I started writing a few years ago. I don't really consider myself a decent writer, just another person with a vivid imagination and has the ability to convey the pictures in my mind into words. I was really surprised when I received generous compliments and requests for more fan-fiction. Once in awhile I came across a few nasty people who demanded---threatened would be a better word---that I write things THEIR way. For example, they'd email me after a certain chapter's been uploaded, telling me what should happen the next chapter. Or they'd flood my inbox with 'WRITE A SESS/KAG FIC!!!!!!' My stories are about what's in my mind. It pleases me to have people appreciating my work, but the reason I write is because of my love for it. It brings me into this world where I shut reality out for a couple of hours and I make things happen, just by writing. I spend hours pouring over my stories, developing plots, finding the correct words to use to emphasize the feeling, and people flame me for that.

It probably sounds stupid, letting something as trivial as this affect me.

Trust me, when you log in to your account to find 107 emails from the same person asking you to write 'a bloody lemon', the feeling of utter dismay? I mean, think about it. All the hard-work trying to make people understand what you're seeing in your head and all they think about is cold, unfeeling sex! There are plenty of PWPs out there, why can't they just leave me alone? Siiiiiiighs.

Rather than let this bother me and spoil my love for writing, I've decided. Actually, it was an impromptu decision. You guys know how spontaneous I am. ::blushes:: Anyway, my works will only be uploaded on MMorg or to those I want to share it with. This will be the arrangement until I feel that I'm ready, which will probably take awhile since I don't think I would like to be flamed for uploading a chapter again.

Music: Rocking Around The Christmas Tree - Miley Cyrus
Mood: Sad

Christmas is descending really fast, everyone's rushing to buy presents and decorating their homes for this festive season of giving.
So I was just reading through the articles on msn.com, like I always do, and I found this article that brought me to tears.
Not for the first time it made me realise how lucky I am to be sitting here typing on the stupid laptop that keeps hanging. And it made me feel all the charity I've done in my life is not enough. Not enough for these poor children who wishes for glasses and shoes.
And my dearest friends in America, those who've been struggling since last year/beginning of this year, all I could do was pray for you.
Some people couldn't afford their bills, or property taxes because they've lost their jobs and they've families to provide for. Yet they stayed strong and continued pushing forward.
Living in Singapore, sheltered by the government, we're all fucking lucky kids.
I'm gonna step out and help those people, donating money, packing up all those clothes I wont wear anymore(the kids that get my clothes are fucking lucky, I'll say) and all those books I refuse to touch because somewhere in this world, someone needs them.

On a lighter note, I've learned LOADS this year from people that were supposedly my friends. I made new friends and created new memories, alll the while praying that 2010 would be much better than this shit-filled year.
I really appreciate all the things everyone has done for me and even to those thats done nothing but made my life miserable. Truth is I dont give a fat damn anymore cos I won't be seeing any of you bastards anymore for the rest of my life!
Its all water under the bridge now. Moving on.. moving on.
Then again, its inevitable. Next year I'll have to go back to that shit-hole to collect my results and paste on this stupid smile even though thats like the worst place EVER. And all those fan-fucking-tastic pleasantries I'll be expected to exchange. *Shudders*
Kicking everyone out of my life isn't a bad thing. I just made space for those that deserves my attention and I never regret the decision.
I've a family that loves me in two jumbo flats, I'm not in dire need of any survival stuffs like food and water and I have these awesome friends who are on their way to Dubai without me cos I chose to stay in Singapore to spend my new year. Love you guys. :)
What more, can a princess ask for? /winks
In the end, its all a happy ending.
Ok stop with the critisms.
No really, I appreciate and thank you all for having been in my life(not really). I should shut up.
Aight, bye xx. :)

P.S Wishing you a very Merry Christmas in advance :)

Music: Jump Then Fall - Taylor Swift
Mood: SHOPPING! :)

So I wanted to watch Disney's classic movies and was sulking cus my mum gave all those VCDs to the Salvation Army. Moose dragged me to his house and showed me a 'surprise' he meant to show me when he finished downloading.
It was the whole collection of Original Disney Classics!
YAY :) He's super!

Friday we had some sort of gathering at this Indo restaurant cus Georgina and Siti were working there. Haha :) Gonna miss everyone so much! :l
Seems like everyone's working and can't do without a job. Come on, we're only 16 and people's trying to dive headfirst into the working arena.
Whatever. That seems boring AND complete matyrdom.

I couldn't wait to blog about my days spent in Orchard, SHOPPING. Awesome! The only reason we get to shop is because the adults wanna buy xmas presents without our presence so they gave us money to go shopping! :)
Saw amazing deals at Pull and Bear and those awesome tops slash accessories slash printed scarves from Forever 21! And Bershka(whatever that is) had the most beautiful boots that I've wanted since forever!
But I didn't buy any of those cus I didn't exactly have that much money on me and I spent it on both my sisters.
It seems like a total anti-climax when I said I didn't buy any BUT I bought so many DKNY sweaters. They were on this huge discount rack so my mum took as many as she could find! I can't wait for next year to flaunt all my sweaters. HA! :)

OH and I found out what my mum's giving me for CHRISTMAS this year! The Ralph Lauren POLO, BIG HORSE, LATEST DESIGN, PINK!!!
I've been wanting one of those since I turned 10 because the one I had then couldn't fit me anymore. :( Anyway, I was on full-on screeching mode the whole night. I thought my mum would just buy the cheaper one or smth but of course, she doesn't like cheap -.-
I'm still so happy about it!!! Hee :)

Grandma's coming back tomorrow! I'm starting to appreciate the beauty of homecooked food and someone who would cook for me whenever I was hungry. *glares at mum*


I look like a complete glutton. Well I WAS HUNGRY.


That, is the most adorable girl in the world. :)


Oh Lynn did this to my hair. HEE

Music: I Believe - Tiffany Thornton & Kermit
Mood: Dog-tired.

These past few days I've been going out and I'm still VERY tired because I feel like I haven't slept enough. I keep waking up at 6++, or even 5 and I don't know why.
I've been cabbing everywhere, which explains why my Prada wallet is empty.
This is some serious shit, all of a sudden I decide that public transport really annoys the heck out of me and I started taking taxis everywhere I go.
Okay, topic aside.

Sunday was JLPT4. Last exam of the year and I mugged for it. I did not sleep for like.. 72 hours? Okay I slept a total of 4 hours out of the 72 hours.
Awesome ;) I love being young.
SMU was PACKED. Everyone was squeezing and you had to wait for like atleast two rounds before you could get into the lift.
Reason being those lazy shitpops who takes the lift even though they could just go on the escalator. If there were stairs, I'd gladly take it.
The exam was harder than I expected but do-able. I was sitting with the row of kids taking the exam. And they were cute. I think I'm acting like a future cougar BUT they're too cute and I couldn't help it. There was this little kid who looks japanese(I think he's halfhalf) and wore Adidas from head to toe. And I meant it when i said HEAD to TOE.
My classmates were sitting opposite me so I couldn't cheat at all. Although I did smile at Shirley a couple of times during the exam. Ahem.
So after everything ended, Shirley, Mel and I went for lunch at Cafe Cartel and this cute guy(who locked eyes with me like 5 times) sitting behind Shirley was sitting beside me in the cafe. Ha! Nothing happened, sadly.
Anyway we walked to somerset. And I saw 313 somerset(mum!) and orchard central(aunt!). I've already made big plans on who to bring shopping where and how much I'm gonna reap at the end of the trip! :)
I was SO tired the whole time at Orchard I thought was going to die from the exhaustion. And I felt sick and feverish, not to mention extremely uncomfortable.
Trudged home, laid down and didnt get up till morning.

Monday we had to go help Glecy with her deco and stuffs. It was fun but I was really very tired and I wasn't exactly comfortable either. Made plans to have lunch at some indonesian restaurant with everyone. :)

Yesterday was THE BOMB. Although we spent majority of the time wandering around aimlessly.. We met up with Klin at Bugis and had lunch at Pastamania's.
It tasted gross and I regretted it.
Seth came over, we were really sorry we couldn't send Jon off with a surprise :(, followed by Derrick and the wandering-around-aimlessly part started.
It was awkward at first because they didn't know Seth and I didn't know Derrick. But between my sneezing and everyone laughing at me, we warmed up.
PK TOTALLY DITCHED US FOR HIS FRIENDS WHO 'WANTED TO KNOW ME'.
Haha very clever. Douche -.-
The guys had to leave because they had stuffs to do so three of us girls went city hall and I bought a pair of tights at Marina Square and we went kbox and went CRAZY for like.. hours? I know we ended at 10.
Lynn was merciless with the mic.
Everyone went home EXHAUSTED for the third time in a week.
And I meant it when I said exhausted.

Ending off with my best girls, the ones who were ALWAYS there for me no matter how much of a bitch I was:

Ouch? :)

XOXO